The Maiden: Three-in-One Goddess of the Witches
"Every time that we turn over a new leaf in our ordinary lives, or get a new hair-style, or reinvent ourselves in other ways, the Maiden is smiling on."
I think over the last year I went though a lot of personal changes, like literally just about reinventing myself. It'd been happening for a while, but it reached a point where I could no longer be both things, like my path had been splitting for a while and over the past year is when I'd reached the actual fork in the path and had to decide which way I was going to go. For quite a while unable to even answer basic questions about myself. I'd just say that I didn't want to talk about it or that I just didn't know to certain topics and questions, because I didn't want to have to make that decision. It turns out that Kenna was figuring out many of the same things herself over that same year (which made it tough because I didn't really have the person I wanted most to lean on during that time :C). But I just talked to her about it the other night, and she told me her story, which was in every way a million times more dramatic than mine...But she honestly wouldn't be herself if it wasn't, and she got to the end of her story and basically the tl;dr was that the fuel to one of her biggest personal life changes was "two boys, a lip ring, and a wardrobe change." For me it was a few panic attacks, a bit of crying, and then deciding just to give things the time they needed for me to be comfortable enough with them...But, hey, leave it to the artist to make it so a piece of jewelry and clothing end up with such powerful meanings behind them.
I'm not wiccan, or anything, obviously, but it is interesting putting it in a perspective like this, like that this is a new sort of phase and I'm just in the beginning stages or whatever. Anyways, I've been having more fun with the idea that I can actually define myself, instead of stressing out over no longer having that thing in my life that practically defined me. xD
Ember, Oct 25, 2012
