Would I choose to have babies again, even though as I write this, my little one scrambles for attention disturbing my otherwise peaceful reverie?
Do I feel happier at present about having children? I do not think so, at least not at this present moment as all I can think of right now are my childless mates who are probably still asleep, getting that much enjoyed lie-in that has been denied me for the last four years. (I am selfish, I admit)
However, on the whole, I adore my kids. Yes, at present, looking after little ones who depend completely on you for their existence is tiring, I would not swap it for anything. They increase my reasons for being alive. I have ever been suicidal or depressed and I was one of those that waited to have kids because I did not want anything to hold me back from my career and voluntary causes. However, the truth is, I am now more centered, more sure of my purpose, less selfish, more patient, more able to stick at things and all-round more joyful.
I know that when die and all I have done disappears into the ether, my children and their children and their children etc will carry something of my partner and I into the future.
That is my kind of legacy.